Leaving for New York!

Hey Guys,

Yepp..i'm leaving soon..bus leaves the station at 830 PM, so here i am, signing off for a week, saying good bye and happy holidays wherever you are, and wish me good luck seeking my white christmas! i found out that i'll be in boston during christmas and it snows on sunday in boston..hope it carries on to monday, or at least i still have some snow left on monday to be happy about! haha..

Yepp..it's gonna be cool! wow..i tink i'm as excited about this as i was coming to ann arbor! hah..yepp..will tell you guys about it when i can, and rest assured while i do not have a camera with me, others do, and i'll grab hold of them and upload it! ha..so wait for it!

Merry christmas all!

The Journey

Here i go..before i start, i warn you, what i say may shake your religious mind, if you start out with one. It IS going to be controversial, but i'm just having my say in this blog, and i do not ask that you believe in what i say.

First off, i must admit that i do not feel very very spiritual nowadays. Not really praying much and all, haven't been reading the bible for a while, but i'm gonna rectify that over the break [i hope..starting with good intentions here]

But i am very very confused. Very confused, and for a while i had thought that i was alone in this quest filled with questions.

Just what are we looking for in our religion?

Like i had wondered before, we all seek a kind of confirmation, a kind of God that we can relate to. When we were an agrarian society we worshiped a God who could manipulate the weather and give us a good harvest. When we were oppressed by a dominating empire, we worshiped a God who could deliver us from it, who would send a messiah of war to help bring us through it. And when we are now in a modern society, we worship a God who would give us the sense of security which we do not get from the world.

We all want to know that somewhere out there, someone cares who you are, and what you did, the sacrifices you make in life, even if no one else noticed or cared.

But that being said, as a christian, i am not very proud of the fact that people of the same faith could stand so divided over our faith. We're all christians, but we believe in different doctrines, and practices, different texts, different teachings when we all pursue the one teacher who is Jesus. Not to mention, in terms of worshiping the same God, Christians, Jews and Muslims are all in one accord. Then why is there such a divide? And how do we differentiate between what is God inspired and what is man inspired?

A text can be read in a million different ways, and that is just how our human mind works. No matter how a person claims to be objective, there is always a shade of bias and human failure that is prevalent. In fact, the presence of such 'flaws' make it even more authentic, rather than a perfect, make-believe story. Only that you can believe that no one council sat down and discussed how to create a hoax to play bluff for generations and generations.

No religion/belief that is built on lies can survive the test of time.

So in essence, what do we seek? In our faith? In our religion? In our seeking?

Oh, i seek. You cannot believe how much time i spent arguing with myself about what i believe in, what is right, what could be right and what may be wrong. And sad enough, i have come to the conclusion that i do not think any ONE way of thinking can fit mine. Ha..but i am not about to start a new faith myself..[madness] but i will continue to seek, thirst, and hopefully this need will bring me to where i need to be, where i can piece everything together and see the whole picture.

Even if i can only see the whole picture when i leave this world, it would be worth it, cos i can say that i spent part of my life seeking who God really is and how He works in our world.

but a few conclusions i came up with that i want to share, that may sound controversial to my fellow christians. Salvations do not come by faith alone! Or so i should say, faith comes with works. While salvation does not come by works alone, the same is about faith. Both need to come hand in hand.

And i had a great breakfast with my small group leader Kevin Armstrong, he mentions that through true faith, works will follow. And i agree. In the final judgement it is written

"When the son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, then he will sit on the throne on his glory. All the nations will be gathered in his presence and he will separate the people as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. He will place the sheep at his right hand and the goats at his left.

Then the King will say to those on his right, 'come, you who are blessed by my Father, inherit the Kingdom prepared for you from the creation of the world. For i was hungry and you fed me. I was thirsty and you gave me a drink. I was a stranger and you invited me to your home. I was naked and you gave me clothing. I was sick and you cared for me. I was in prison and you visited me. '

'I tell you the truth, when you did it to one of the least of these my borthers and sisters, you were doing it to me!'
"
So think on it. Faith was not mentioned here. Faith in Jesus gives you the right to the forgiveness that He offers. If you do not believe in that, you have no business in asking for forgiveness through Jesus. And yet, before Him, there is not mention of Faith, only of your works. Think on that. Faith alone will save no one, it allows you to be saved, but it will not save you.

Believe in Jesus, pray for forgiveness constantly when you sin and repent. Then when your faith is established, your works will come naturally. Being kind of heart, being like our heavenly Father and putting a smile on His face when you go about your business. That's what will bring us through.

Now, even if you are not a believer, i believe in hope, and i believe in the goodness of my father's heart. Even if you are not a believer, i would like you to just believe in Jesus, even if it's only for a short moment. Say this prayer with me, and even though after you say it you stop believing, it's fine. Just keep away from sin and do good deeds. This is a prayer for forgiveness.

The Lords Prayer[with minor editions i feel is appropriate. If you are uncomfortable, pls look up the original one in Matt 6:9]

Dear heavenly Father,
blessed be your name.
Your will be done, your kingdom come
In our lives as it is in heaven.
Give us today what we need,
and forgive our sins
and help us forgive others who trangress against us.
Lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from the evil one.
For yours is the kingdom
and the power and the glory forever
Amen

And like Jesus says to the adulterous women in John 8,
"Neither do i [condemn you]. Go and sin no more."

Asking for forgiveness does not save you if you persist. But do your best to stay away from sin, and do good deeds. And maybe there is a chance for us all when we face judgement one day.

Be Blessed

After Finals

Seems almost surreal. Finals are over, one term in michigan is over. 5 more to go[hopefully]. 2.5 years left here. The same period of time i spent in Army.

What am i doing now? Ha..When i had my violin lesson my teacher told me i should go out and do something. Funny thing, i think she could be younger or the same age as i, and she's telling me to hang loose and do something fun today. Maybe i should. What am i doing?

Ha..was actually laughing at myself..i HAD a lunch date with a guy! sounds wrong..And i got 'dumped' for a girl..ha..ain't that funny? No wonder i'm dateless..hah..kiddingz..

I'm actually dreaming of doing something phenomenal in my life right now..IF i gather the courage to do so..IF..wonder what is holding me back. Fear? Trepidation? Unknown? Doesn't that make life more worthwhile than just cruising around? Anyway, I'm in the throes of making the decision and i feel like a wimp already..Ha!

Okay okay..i WILL do it later..which means by dinner time anyway..hah..i will not tell you guys what it is, unless it works out or has no repercussions..ha..TOO BAD..:P

Yepps..this is a blog crazy entry going out to you guys out there who care, MY FINALS ARE OVER!

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*cheers*

Message In A Bottle

Reminiscent of a book i read, by Nicholas Sparks. Kinda different ideas tho, the book tells of a man who had lost his wife and sends letters to the sea, thinking that he could communicate his love to his wife this way, and instead the letters are picked up by another woman.

This song [according to me..DISCLAIMER] instead describes a love that a man has, but he chooses to bottle it up, and cast it to sea, hoping instead that the someone MAY get to read it. OR he could just have sent a message saying that he needs love in his life, in a bottle, hoping someone gets to read it and answer to that call..

Instead, it's been a year, and still no reply. Only hope kept him together, and while the love that he seek may mend his life, this love can also break his heart [this waitinig]

Hoping someone would see this SOS he sent out, that it would be unique, and attract someone unique, someone who could love him, and someone he could love.

But instead he finds a hundred billion bottles at the shore.

Are you one of those bottles? [I certainly am one of them..heh heh..not ashamed to say that!]

The Heart Of Life

No guys, i would not be talking about the song..rather, the theme of the song is a nice idea tho..

Remember when i mentioned that life is all about love?

Wells, in life, there are times when we are loved, times when we feel lonely, and it's in these times when we find that life is routine, bleak, grey, and everything that is not bright and shiny. And we would wish that we would quickly find that silver lining in this bulk of a grey cloud that we wade through in life.

It's in these times when we need to know that the heart of life is good.

Think on it. Although there are many things that you wished that God could change this world for you, admit it! there are at least a dozen other things that you would not want changed for everything that you want changed!

You wished that someone would give you more attention, but at the same time you will not want that same person to become a jerk, a freeloader and wad nots? You wished that the next exam you have, you will have a fantastic grade, but at the same time you do not want to be seen as only exam smart..

Not exactly the best of analogies but you get the idea.

So live your life, look on the brighter side. I know sometimes there just isn't a bright side. I said brighter side. There's always a brighter side waiting for you to discover. Even when you're caught in the rain with no umbrella, you'll discover the fun of having the rain wash down over your head. Even when you came in last in a marathon, hey, you finished the marathon! Even when you feel lonely in your room, you've got my blog to read. [haha] so what are you complaining about?

As much as you'd like to say that life has been tough for you, just put a smile on your face and admit it; the heart of life is still good. No matter what you go through.

And just recently i got back my Engine 101 finals result. 106/125. Darn..i thought i had a perfect paper. Worst still, i did not get back the paper to see what was the problem! I seriously think that the grader did not understand what i wrote, which i should get full credit for having an ingenious answer [indulge me a bit]. But hey, i still got my A for the class..I should be thankful for that..Ha..so what if i did not get the full marks?

And i still remember something that happened a long while ago..It was a division marathon i ran for while i was still in 30SCE. it was a 5km marathon[not much] but i remember running and running, and when i was in the last stretch, i even made a small prayer to God, saying how much i wanted to be able to do a dash for the finishing line.

In the end, i had to slow down and clutch my sides. It was too much. And i was freakin pissed off. I came in 29th, and i walked like an idiot at the finishing line. Oh great. I prayed about it, i wanted it so much, and i walked. Fantastic. And i was sore about it for half a day.

Then it hit me. I was the 29th runner; there were about 500 other fit young men running the race and i was 29th. And i freakin walked to the finish line! ha..how many people can make THAT claim? ha..man, if i did not know better, i would realise that it was a miracle for me to be able to do that!

And it wasted half a day of being sorry for myself. I was wondering if i had a bunch of friends i could talk to about this, they would have told me that it was a great result already!

Hah..kinda unorthodoxed, but the bottom line of this entry is the line in this song
"and circle of your friends will defend that silver lining"

We cannot deny it. We are social beings. and though there are times i want to say that i do not need anyone, there are times i feel lonely, and even though i chose not to join others, there are times i wished someone would just knock on my door even if it's just a short chat. And when someone does that, i just feel good all over, even if its just returning my guitar. It feels good.

So here's to all my friends, who have knocked on my door some times in my life. If i dun answer, KNOCK HARDER! haha..kiddingz. Yepp. you guys rock my world, and rock it harder if i dun respond! haha..cranky me.. yepp..Thank you all for making my life my world. Let's all defend that silver lining!

*cheers!*

Family

Kinda wierd that i would be blogging about this..

Had a really interesting conversation with a friend last night. She told me of how her family was like, or rather IS like [still is] but i'm referring to was because she was telling me how her family was when she grew up.

And i kinda felt a little weenie bit sad. Okay, i'll be honest. I am disturbed. Not because i did not have security, not because i wasn't loved enough. Just because it could have been so much more.

And I know i will sound very whiny and whimpy and everything..but hey, it IS my blog and i reserve the right to say anything on this blog without someone on the street shouting "Wimp!" to me..[and if that happens i will probably skin that person alive where he was standing..]

Anyway, I grew up in a stable family where there was always enough. I wasn't pampered too much to crave for material stuffs, i did not really need much money even though i DID spend all that i could lay my hands on, i learnt to play the piano, learnt to cycle [can't remember how tho], learnt how to fish [from dad], learnt moderation [tho i forgot about it while growing up..who doesn't?] and was provided for.

That being said, i have to admit that i'm not expressive, in the sense that i don't know how to express love very well. Love language is kinda 'in-built' and self meaningful in our family. For example, my mom loves by paying attention, and stepping in when she needs to. She loves by preparing great meals on special occasions sometimes, and occasionally just for no other reasons but to make everyone happy at meals. My Dad, i suppose, shows his love in the family by being the typical dad model, making sure everyone had their degree of freedom, everyone was well provided for, and he especially made time every saturday to take us all out on a dinner. My sisters are more enigmatic. Sometimes my elder sis shows her love by buying games that we both enjoy. My second sis would jio me to watch her favourite drama with her late in the night.

Me? I just live there..

Sometimes i wonder how i could be so selfish. Maybe it's part of being the youngest child. I kinda feel like i'm the one who is to be pampered [not that i enjoy it.] It's just that i dun feel like i'm in the position to be the pamperer. Namely cos i'm not working yet, cannot provide for anything, and i'm still the one who goes 'i want' tho not ALL that often. I spend my time in front of the computer, kill the cockroaches when they terrorize the house, fix light bulbs and try to install stuff on the computer.

Ain't that a tad sad?

I suppose, part of being a guy, it's really difficult to show emotions. Too well ingrained in the society is the idea of emotions as a sign of weakness. Well, guess what; it brought up one person who is too weak to show emotions! What this world does not lack is irony..

And when i see people who have close families i really envy them. Not because i dun have a family that loves me, but just that i have somehow shut them out while i was growing up. I really envy their closeness, the love i witness. Still remember when i saw Frank when he was leaving for NewYork for further studies. His whole family prayed for him at the airport! It was unthinkable [in the good sense] but it was done, and it does not make him a weak person, it made him strong with his family behind him.

And to you people out there who remember me ever saying that you are lucky to be so close to your family, i mean it. Treasure them.

To Dad and Mom [i know you read this sometimes] i hope you understand that i just don't express myself that easily [i tink you guys know this better than i do] and i do apologise that i do not talk to you two unless i really really needed to. I appreciate your presence in my life, the freedom you gave, and the times when you tried to teach me what is right. And i do hope that when you see me, you will find that you have done a good job of bringing me up.

To My sisters, Ha..you guys don't need to pamper me anymore..Grown up le..ha..thanks anyway..

Love you guys loads!

Love

Love..

The ultimate pursuit of life itself.

Love..

The ultimate goal of life.

People love out of a need to love. We need to love our job. We need to love our family, people around us, we need to love ourselves.

People need love as much as they need to love. We seek the love and approval of our parents as a child, the love and approval of our friends as teenagers, and the love and approval of people we hold dear to us when we are adults.

People want to feel wanted, to be loved. Don't we all pursue our religion just to believe that we are not an accident? Don't we all want to know for a fact that our parents wanted us in their life and we are not an accident? Don't we all want to know that our friends want to be our friends because of who we are and not because of circumstances?

Love. Everything in life can be summed up in a simple and beautiful word.

Love, something that i am living in abundances of, and yet can never have enough.

Love..something that we all pursue in our life. For the love of people, we care. For the love of our job we toil. Or perhaps, for the love of the family we take what we take at work. For the love of God we worship and pray. For the love of friends we are always there when we are needed. For the love of ourselves we indulge ourselves a little once in a while.

Love..something that we all wished we were capable of doing, yet something that we are not ready to proclaim. How many times have you wanted to love somebody, but found that you lacked the courage to let it show forth? How many times have you pushed back that urge to love someone, saying that there is always another time?

Love..a tingly feeling that is unexplainable, or something that we have down to a science [or do we only THINK we have it down]

Love..something that cannot be explained but only experienced. Something that we all are capable of doing, something we are all made to do and feel. And when you think about it we were made in the image of God, and we are capable of love and thinking about love and desire love. That is just an image of God, doesn't that mean that God is more capable of love, more capable of thinking about love, and much much more desiring love than we do?

And love opens you up to wounds that cannot be easily closed. Even when you think all are forgiven and all are bygones it lurks in the corner of your mind when it matters most. Love can do that. Love can really hurt when it does.

But all that said and done, we still live our lives out seeking it. Like fireflies seeking the beauty of the fire even though it may destroy them, we seek a love that is everlasting, a love that is beautiful, a love that you can rely on. And at the same time don't we all seek to be capable of being that love that is everlasting, that love that is beautiful, that love that you can rely on when you are feeling weak?

Why then question the purpose of life, when we are made to feel love, seek love, and create love?

I lie not..I seek love, I seek someone who can love me wholly, forget what I have done in the past, who looks forward to the future doing things with me. I seek that someone more than whatever else i am seeking in my life now even though my time and effort spent does not reflect that. I seek someone who can understand me, who can be my port when my ship is broken, someone who can be my star when my sky is dark, someone who can be my breath when i can go no more.

And at the same time, i seek to be capable of that love i seek. Something i judge myself incapable of, or maybe even unworthy of seeking. And the funniest thing is who is there to tell me that except myself?

Life. Isn't it all about loving and being loved? When i do leave this planet and meet with my savior and final judge in heaven, i want to be reminded of all the things i have done loving people, loving myself, and loving God. I want to be able to tell Him that i have done all these when the time comes, because i believe everything falls short of this in putting a smile on His face.

I believe that i was made out of love, love of my parents, love of God, and i grew up in the love of my family, and my friends, and in the future, i will grow up loving my wife, my children, and my children's children. I believe that i was made out of love, that God loved me as He cradled me in His mind in time before eternity, and that He'd love for me to fulfill that design/thought that He had when i was made.

I believe that He loves me no matter what, but i believe that by loving and seeking love i will put a smile on His face. And that will be a slice of my life.

-Endz- Always remember the greatest commandment is not to respect, not to worship, but to love

Free

Dear all,

Ohwells..in short, another song, another insight..I came across this song in church, and i almost did this song in the singaporean cell group last night except i did not prepare it enuff so i could not play it..Anyway, this song has particular meaning to me, especially after the few days of pondering about the meaning of life.

Sometimes i wonder if there is a meaning to everything. Does it matter if i acquire a nice car, a carreer, a condo, a cooking pot, a chef, a credit card , a club, a cbox..[all the Cs], would it make a better person out of the one who owned it? Or if i can make things that provided all these to people..would that make me better?

If i could earn loads of money, and have a family and lots of friends, would that make me a better person?

If i could do all the things in the world that could be done, would i be a better person?

Who tells me that i am a better person anyway?

This is where this song would kick in and tell you that you're free because only God can make you a better person, and only God can tell you that you are a better person. Only God can, so why are you working hard to make everyone else happy, but not making God and yourself happy?

Free (Hillsong)

Would you believe me if i said,
that we are the ones who can make the change in the world today

Would you believe me if i said,
that all of the dreams in your heart can come true today

Would you believe me if i said,
that life can be all that you want it to be today?

And if i had wings i would fly,
cos all that i need, you are
and if the world caved in around me
to you i'd still hold on,
cos you're all that i believe
and the one that created me
Jesus, Because of you
I'm Free!

Would you believe me if i said,
that God can make miracles happen today

Would you believe me if i said,
that you don't need to wait for the answers before
you step out in faith

Would you believe me if i said,
that nothing is ever impossible for God
(repeat chorus)

-endz-
"the truth will set you free"

Things worth living for

Dear all,

Hah..wad a wierd topic..ohwells..to be honest, i have no idea how to give this entry a proper title..so i'm just going with that for now..

Anyway, just had violin lessons yesternight, which was cool..really glad that i have a background in piano and guitar so i hope it helps..and my teacher is totally cool..and pretty too..hah..wad luck! yea..just got a few more stuff i have to pick up before i can start playing songs too on the violin [and torture my neighbours]

AND my housing plans for next year seems solid now..Staying with Daryl, XiaoYan and Qianyi..ha..din figure that i would have co-ed housing, but i guess it works for me..ha..i'll clean up the dishes and do some chores here and there too okay? ha..like i'm gonna be a free loader lidat..heck, i'll even cook a couple of times until you guys complain that i CAN"T cook..hah..kiddingz

Life is good..just in case you guys are wondering why my previous 2 entries does not seem to point that out..In fact, just because life is good doesn't mean that i have found the purpose to it all..does that make sense? But i'm not rushing..God gave us 80+ years to figure that out..what we lived our lives for, and as what some people say, "life can only be understood in retrospect, but can only be lived forward".

I guess i'm just caught up with the idea of what defines all of us..so who are you?

If you're gonna tell me just your name, forget that i asked..a name does not define us..heck, there could be a million other people with the same name, so why bother? Maybe you could tell me what you do, but there could be a million other people who do that same thing you do too..Maybe you could tell me more about your character, but again, you're not the only one. OR you could tell me your life experiences, but i'll tell you one thing; that there is always another person who has gone down that exact same path that you have taken.

To tell the truth, i don't think anyone can answer that question satisfactorily. Like if google made a database of everyone in the world with their name, occupation, life story, experiences, resumes, and you tried to search for yourself, i'd bet you could not find yourself. [scary huh?]

But one thing i always remember is in the book of revelations 2:17b
"And i will give to each one a white stone, and on the stone will be engraved a new name that no one understands except the one who receives it"

Which is really the whole point. Who knows you better than God? He's the one who created you. Who knows who you are except you who lived your life? Even if you tried to explain to another person, only you would know the total truth. So when we live our lives, who are we accountable to? People don't know us. Your boss don't know you, the newspaper don't know who you are, the public will definitely not know you. But YOU know who you are, and GOD knows who you are.

So who are you living for?

Who am I living for?

-Endz-

Life

Dear all,

I'm going to start off with a long quote from John Mayer, taken from JohnMayer.com where the cool cat actually posts his blog! coolness! but here it is..read it and chew on it..

"You're on an airplane, sleeping with your head against the window, your heart set on being home this time three hours from now. All of a sudden, something goes very wrong. The plane stops moving across the air and instead starts falling through it. The lights are flickering and the movie is skipping. The plane dips hundreds of feet in seconds, and the yellow cups fall from the ceiling. They're a brighter shade of yellow than you remember, because unlike the demonstration, these cups have never been handled before.

"Flight attendants take your seats now", you hear, the pilot's voice trembling over a cacophony of alert tones. You get that smell in the bridge of your nose like you've just been hit with a football. That's what the fear smells like. The plane is going down.Four more drastic drops in under a minute. People are crying.

For all the folklore about how your life flashes before your eyes, you're remarkably fixed on one vision - your parents. They're sleeping at this very moment, in a bedroom so quiet they can hear the clock in the kitchen. And you can see them, clear as can be. You wish you could see a playground or a first kiss, but all you can see is your parents sleeping. Huh. Well, that's that.Several long minutes go by.

Then, all at once, the lights come back on and the plane somehow rights itself. Some people cheer, but most people cry harder. The plane lands about an hour later, and as soon as you feel that touch down - hell, even when you were within 50 feet of the ground and could still technically survive a fall - you realize that however you brokered the deal between you and God worked; you've just been granted life in overtime.

Here's the question: what do you change? Whom do you call that you haven't spoken to in years? Whom do you realize has been toxic to your heart and drop with surprising ease? What trips do you cancel, and what trips do you book? What can't you be bothered with anymore? What's the new you like?

Think about that, and then ask one more question. Why not just change it all right now?"

and one more thing; remember in Hebrews 13:14

"For this world is not our permanent home; we are looking forward to a home yet to come"

so why are we so hung up on worldly possessions, reputations, impressions and everything else that comes with it, when it is all transient? why do we not proclaim our love for sake of future working relations, or friendship, or any other matter when it is all temporary?

If life were to end in the next moment, what would you do? If you realise that nothing you work for now is going to stay with you through your afterlife, would you still tink it's worthwhile?

How is your life going to be defined? When you see God finally, are you going to have a hard copy of your life's resume to show him? what are you going to tell your Abba father, to show him that you lived? TRULY lived?

-endz-

Stop This Train

Dear all,
Did i ever mention that i once used to pay specific attention to song lyrics when it caught my ear? ha..i guess everyone does at some point of time..well, here's one particular song that caught my attention, and it kinda spells out how i feel most of the time..ha..looks like i need a fresh outlook on life..here it goes..

JOHN MAYER
Stop This Train
No I'm not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an opened mind
I just can't sleep on this tonight

Stop this train
I want to get out and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can
But honestly will someone stop this train

Don't know how else to say it, don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own

Come on stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can
but honestly won't someone stop this train

So afraid of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game
to find away to say that life has just begun

Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68,
you'll renegotiate

Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute lose the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train

See once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
When you're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing so you cry when you're driving away in the dark.

Singing stop this train
I want to get out and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can
Cause now I see
I'll never stop this train

(think I got 'em now)

Great lyrics needs no more words to explain how i feel now..enjoy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5HwevhhNZnI
-Endz-