Detriot

Hi guys,

Well, now i have an official reason to be lazy to blog! hah..i'm going to Detriot! with no camera and no friend with cameras, so there's no way i can bring back photos, but hopefully i can tell you peops some stories of what happened back there?

For those who didn't know, i'm going Detriot for my spring break holidays with my church, to do the following:
- Visit 2 churches and attend their service there
- Visit a soup kitchen and help out there
- Visit a school and tag along a teacher
- Visit the school again and prepare for people coming in to help out with paint work.

and some other stuff i'm too lazy to remember..hah..but anyway, this trip i'm supposed to seek God as i do good works in His name [church's name], so i do hope that God will speak to me even more than He have over the past few weeks.

Take care and God bless,

100th post!

Dear all,

Well, today was a less bad day after all! ha..God did come through, even though i kinda made Him say that..[i confess..he didn't say it after all..but he DID make it less bad.. :p]

Yepps. I did half of a homework, only to realise that it was due next next week, and i had my friend who told me he almost completed the shared homework we were suppose to hand in on friday, and i realised that half of my midterm on thursday is really peanuts [the other half may be a killer though..techinical writing..argh..]

Anyway, tuesday is the day i have my violin lessons. And i had a kinda performance phobia..as in i was worried i would not do well in the lesson, and earn myself disapproving looks from my teacher. Which never happened, cos she's so wonderful and encouraging. But i DID practice 1 hour yesterday [which was more than usual] and tortured the poor guy who was just fixing the lights outside the practice room [Oooh..what did he do wrong now..right place at the wrong time]

Yepps, anyway, i kinda developed a confidence in playing the instrument, which prolly will increase further now that i bought a mute for my violin so it'd sound less loud and hopefully less awful when i go out of tune. It's still loud and awful if i do go out of tune, but at least it's less bad. Oh wells.

surprise surprise. I din know that so many people din know i played the violin..okay. i kinda din make an announcement out of it, but i tot more people knew about it. I guess maybe that's how much they pay attention to me, or how much i remember telling people about it. haha..bad friend i am..

And it's the end of a less bad day! tomorrow will be EVEN MORE less bad! hah..so singlish-like i am. must practice before i get back to singapore! hah..wait i get culture shock there arr..har har..

Cheers!

Legs strained

Haha..just to add to my good day, i finally went to the gym!!!

haha..now i'm one more gym day away from being a total fat slob. Maybe it's the winter breaking; i'm finally out of my hibernation where i just eat and eat and sleep and sleep..Even the sun is rising earlier now [and setting later] kinda worried, cos it means that one day i will have to subtract one daylight hour [which means 1 hour less sleep! on which ever day it falls on]

And the snow are melting. I'd say that the squirrels are finally out, but they have been out for a couple of days already. Absolutely adorable when you see they scrambling around in the snow looking for their buried treasures [nuts! And i also mean those they eat too!]

Yepps. Temperature is finally hovering above 0 degrees celsius and i'm going to say that i was sweating under my coat today..woohoo! think i'll just melt when i touch down in singapore. Maybe the heat of Paris will acclimatise me better. haha..till then!

Tomorrow will be less bad. God promised.

Cheers

Good Day, Bad Term

Well, that pretty much sums it up..

Have no idea what went over me, but last night i called up a friend for breakfast. Out of the ordinary, except that we had a couple of breakfast together before classes sometimes over the time i was here. And it was a while since i met her, so i was thinking, why not?

And thus i started my day waking up and enjoying breakfast with a cute girl and good company.

Then when i rushed for the bus, on the bus was yet another friend whom i haven't seen for a while, someone who usually would not have taken that bus except she woke up late and snoozed for 1 hour before realising she was late. And i wouldn't have taken that bus if i did not meet my other friend for breakfast.

So it was a good day.

Then i got back my aero midterm and then it got ugly. I got only 70% for the paper, which could mean a B- or worse, and since it was because of stupid marking and stupider question and the fact that i [again] skipped steps in my answers that i got 70% when i was really expecting a 90% [my answers were right..i was marked down because of the steps. how ridiculous is that?!]

Well then the only consolation was that the class did not do well, and there seems to be moderation in store for us. The fact was that most of the class scored 30-60 with many people in the 30-40 range, and only 1 90% and 2 80+% so i guess i din really do that badly, but a 70 IS a 70. haiz.

And looking at the term, eng 100 is not looking well, aero 225 seems conceptually easy but the grader is a very careless one [once he feels your concept is wrong he doesn't look at your answer..why can't he be careless the other way and just check the answer?!], and i'm keeping my witchcraft class because i may be able to do better for it than Engine 100 [except i have to get through a 5-8 pages paper for the class] and math is the only pushover.

Ha..maybe i am stressing myself too much. I have been used to high scores that 70 kinda threw me off. On a technical paper that i have no concept problems with. Just because i like to skip steps. Well, that teaches me something now..

Grrr...

Wierd old me

I've lived with myself for almost 22 years. I'm kinda sick of myself..haha..maybe i wished i would not live with myself for the 22 years, but i'm stuck with myself..

Anyway, back to the subject of wierd old me..

I remember so many times i complain that i am lonely, bored, and sometimes even, i make the remark that people only approach me with homework that they did not know how to do. [and sometimes i just shrug and say i don't know either]

But the point is there. all the while i say people avoid me, the fact is i avoid people too..

The point is not an apologetic one though..i avoid people for a reason, that crowds ick me, i hate crowds, much less crowdy places, much less a party where i'll be left sitting alone.

But i crave company, a friend or two, who would sit with me and talk to me, and make the crowd disappear. If i were at a party, with a good friend beside me, i would just feel like the room was empty and it's just the 2 of us talking.

Oh wells, strange old me.

And as i am blogging, strange old 22 yr old me is missing out on a block party [wad kinda party is a block party anyway], just as i missed out on a snowball fight yesternight, and wad nots. And wierd old me is going to church, alone, and feeling awkward in the church alone .. again..bored and same old strange old me.

Cheers

Joanna Fong May Tse forced me to blog

So there..hah..told you i'd do it..now millions of people around the world are gonna wonder who you are that you can make me blog..

But i over extend myself.

I've been doing some thinking [what else is new] and i was wondering what i should blog about. What do people come on my blog to read? i can talk about my theology, my ideology, my philosophy, or just simple and plain what's going on..do people really want to read that?

Then i realised..they come to MY blog to read about me right?

Haha..me with an over-inflated ego here.

Anyway, i'm feeling good now, spiritual even, which is rare. Cos i just delivered 2 chapters out of a book that our cell group is doing now. We even have a name for ourselves, it's 'Anchor' and the core members are the founding members as well, the leader Ghim, and the rest of us, Zhi Jun, Wen Jie, Jean and Lora. And now Ephraim has joined us. Ha..and myself and Wenjie are the unofficial music/worshippers cos we know our instruments well enough to play for the group, which is a 'downgrade' for Wenjie, but a big upgrade for myself, cos now i finally have a chance to play for a group! haha..and it's great! [especially if i know the song..or else i'm just playing chords..haiz]

But anyway, we are doing bible studies on books, and currently we are doing on the book 'Drawing Closer' by John Bevere, which i kinda read before, which i kinda forgot, which i just taught 2 chapters to the group, which they also almost fell asleep. Ha..but i guess it's how much you pay attention that you learn the most.

But i hope i was clear, cos i am NERVOUS speaking, especially when people are paying attention. I can crap a lot what people dun remember what i say, but i sometimes stutter and forget my train of thoughts when i deliver a message.

Growing experience..i'm 21, but i'm still a growing boy in God's eyes.

Cheers!

[Will continue to blog more..I'll be BACK!]

Love y'all

Neighbourhood - Vonda Shepard

album: Songs From Ally McBeal (1998)

Here's the photo I've been looking for
It's a picture of the boy next door
And I loved him more than words could say, yeah
Never knew it until he moved away

Faded pictures in my scrapbook
Just thought I'd take one more look
And recall when we were all in the neighbourhood

Here's a photo of the neighbourhood
Here's the corner where we stood
Here's a snapshot of dad's old car
Never got us very far

Faded pictures in my scrapbook
Just thought I'd take one more look
And recall when we were all in the neighborhood

And all those friends, where did they go?
Oh, I dont know
And all those friends we used to know
Oh, in the neighbourhood