Good events interjected with a bad

Dear all,

I'm starting this entry off with a tinge of sadness, cos i just heard about something that is qt terrible that happened to a family member.

Now i do not claim to have extraordinary connections and friendship with this cousin of mine, but hearing it juz made me shout out to God "WHY!?"

This cuz of mine, whom i'm going to keep annonymous, has a case of HIV. It's not exactly news to me cos we actually found out a year ago. This child had contracted it from his parents and my uncle and aunt who adopted him had failed to make him go through a health checkup when he was adopted or after he was adopted and brought back to Singapore. As we all know, HIV lies dormant unless checked for, and all the while he has been a shy but sporty little chap who was going to grow beyond my height and stature too. He's been healthy most of his life until he was recently diagnosed with it and it has gotten worse over the last few months. 2 weeks or so ago he was just admitted into hospital to receive care for his condition.

But i wonder out loud to God 'God! It's not even his fault! Why does he have to pay for his parent's sins? They should be punished for their own acts of sin and they are the ones who committed crimes against you. Why should your wrath fall upon my cuz? For that matter on my uncle and aunt?! and for that matter on me to know that such a tragedy befalls my family?'

And i feel God just speak back to me in my mind: 'It's no ones fault, but everyone's blessing'

I was confused for a while, but then everyth fell into place.

It's my uncle and aunt's joy to have had a son adopted; he's a son they never had, and i guess at points of time my cuz was the one who kept them together. He's truly a blessing in the sense that i had a cuz i could have fun with when we had a family gathering. He's a blessing in the way that he always was shy greeting every of his seniors, and a blessing when he brought all his games to us to share.

And my uncle and aunt were a blessing to him as well; they adopted him and brought him to Singapore, cared for him, gave him an education, loved him and provided for him a safe environment with more luxuries than he could have asked for before. And sometimes even overpampered him.

And it's up to me to be blessing to him.

Sometimes i wonder, when good things happen to us, we thank God for it and for making it happen. And when bad times happen we blame the devil or worse; blame God. Sometimes somethings are God sent to us, but sometimes bad things do happen too, and we must realise it is God-used. God will sometimes allow bad things happen to us, in a bid that we grow stronger through the fire, and that he may better know us and our hearts. Will we give up and curse his Holy Name? or push through and believe that His ways are higher than ours and that there's a lesson to be learnt in it?

I just suddenly remember a verse [paraphrased of course] 'God is faithful to us even as we are not, and He never lets a temptation/obstacle/difficulty come before us that we cannot handle.' Meaning that He actually QCed all events that are about to happen and he makes sure that we are able to handle it given our faith level and trust in Him at that moment!

Yepp, and i'm gonna visit little cuz [he's only 13 yrs old i tink] in the hospital where he's suffering right now. [i wun even go into the details of suffering] Visiting him on saturday night. So right now i just wanna pray for his recovery in a short passage later, and whoever reads this blog entry, i hope you could maybe repeat the words after me and pray with me and maybe as we lift this prayer up to God he will take this sadness in my heart and disperse it and bring forth a miracle in my life. Thank You all.

'Dear Heavenly Father, Abba father..i just want to thank you for all the blessings that you have given in my life; without your guidance and love i would be no where near where i am right now, and if i'm not where i am right now who would i be? Glory be to you for everything i am and everything i have.

Father, i lift up the broken/weak body of my little cousin into your loving arms. Even as he does not know you or acknowledge your name and power, i pray that your love still surround him through me, his parents and his relatives as we visit him and care for him. I pray that this love will make his life on the earth you created all worthwhile and that he will be able to see and sense your love here on earth, before he meets you in his Promised land of final rest. I believe it'll be a fantastic place on heaven where he may serve you with all his being. But if it's possible, i pray for a healing and a miracle to come upon him here so that he may be a testament to your power and glory.

But not as i will it, but yours be done, your kingdom here on earth as it is in heaven. Lord, i pray that no matter what happens, you fill us with your holy spirit and may it guide us to understand your ways, so that we may continue blessing your name and giving thanks and not curse the situation and let resentment grow in our hearts. Let there be inner healing in my uncle and aunts as they go through this difficult time and let them treasure what love my cousin has brought in their lives and not dwell upon the parting. In your most precious name i pray Lord, Amen.'